Sad Xmas

I got my xmas present really early this year. But sad to say, it's something not good. On xmas eve, I got 20 missed calls from my uncle (who borrowed money form me). I purposely ignored his calls as I didnt know how to reject him.

This morning he called again. I spoke to him, told him I do not have money. I am struggling myself too. Anyway, he told me he will call me later to see if I can find the money. And then he called. I didnt answer, instead I called my aunty.

I was shocked. She told me on xmas eve, someone send him to her house and mum's to borrow money from them. Oh my god!!! Who the f*** is the guy? What if he is the loan shark? What if he comes back again? I am so worried now.

Mum is so old and she is always in the house with my 2 most precious. I cannot afford to have any of them hurt. I am really worried. He called again. i rejected again with a message:-

"i dont have money, dun call me anymore, i cant help"

"thank you for helping me. dun tell anyone that i call u"

"i'm sorry but i know mum & yi just gave you money. pls dont call them anymore pls dun disturb her, thank you"

"i will. i wont disturb them anymore. if i cant stand up on my own, i wont meet all the family members. i'm sorry. what i have done last time cause me to loose all my family members"

Sigh, again that made me felt bad. I really dont know what to do now. But I have made the decision to confront mum. I will let her know that he has called me and I have gave him money too.

The 5th time

It has been raining a lot these days. Too much that it caused too many landslides, accidents and deaths. At times, I would rather not read the newspaper, rather not listen to the radio or watch the tv for news... It's too sad.



Anyway, it has been raining a lot and here I am seated in front of the computer not knowing what I should write. When I have totally gotten LOL out of my mind, there is nothing more to write about? That is hillarious. Is this blog really for unhappy stuffs only?



Cant I just blog about how great yesterday's massage was? Cant I just mentioned how sweet my dear boy is? Cant I just tell you all how mischevious my little girl is? Cant I just say how wonderful my life is now?



It's funny... really. In fact this is the 5th time I logged on and finally wrote something. For the past 4 times, I have actually signed in, hands on the keyboard - but ended up with a blank page. Logged off and continued with something else.



This morning while driving to work, I heard on the radio - divorce was the topic. And there were far too many callers. Why is this so? Why is it that everyone choose divorce over solving the problem? And to my surprise, the majority of people initiating divorce are wives. I guessed it's because women these days are more independant. They dont need men, they are able to support themselves. The new aged women believe in equal rights. I had the same thought. I wish I had the courage to stand up and tell him what I wanted.

But now, I am kind of happy that I didnt make such move...

Lazy, aint I?

Mr. went on a holiday, and today is the third day. Instead of going out to party or meeting up some friends or doing anything that I should have, I stayed home. I was with my family the past 3 days and enjoying it.

Wanted to meet up with some friends for a drink - too lazy. Wanted to go for a massage - too lazy. Wanted to go shopping and beautify myself - too lazy. Why? Am I too used to having a life like that? Am I only restrained to my own family? But, I am not at all complaining, nor am I bored. In fact I am happy as always.

I dont even bother about LOL anymore. I am so glad he is out of my life... finally.