"MY"

I have been married for almost 7 years. And I just realised, I have never used the word "my" for anything or whoever on his family side. For example...

1) his mum - my husband's mother, mr's mother, his mother
2) his sister - my husand's sis, mr's sis, his sister
3) the house we used to live in with his parents - his house, mr's house, his mom's house

I have never used the phrases, "my mother in law, my sister in law, our house"

To come to think of it, is this right? I have been married for so many years and yet I still dont want to acknowledge them as related to me? Why is this so? Am I bad? Both him & I agree that I am a perfect daughter, the best sister, but when it comes to in law, I sucked. He always say that I dont love him, I dont treat his family like my own, I dont treat the house as a home.

Yes, I agree. I never liked 'that' house. Cause there was no privacy, people can just come in and 'search' my drawers and read my letters. Funny how they lived and funny they were brought up this way. I am not trying to criticise on how people raise a family, but I am just so annoyed at that time. How can I make that my home?

Till today, only did I realised I have never used MY in laws. Well, I guess I should, now. Since I am given a 'home' and I get to do what I like.

I have decided to build this feeling with mr. I have decided to make it happen, rather than letting it be like this forever.

it's that time again - when the skies turn grey, the rain starts to fall, the temperature suddenly drops. and here i am sitting in front of my notebook once again, feeling out of place. dont feel like talking, no mood for laughings. suddenly everything becomes wrong. this is not right, that is wrong.

how can i actually overcome these? why does this feeling comes without warnings?

"duh"