Trust No More

All these years I have trusted him so much. Wherever he goes, whatever he does, I dont ask. When I see him sad, I asked him to go out with his friends. He goes to nightclubs, I dont ask what he does. I told him that is trust.

Now I know he is not doing well, I saved with him. I dont spend much. Everything I want to buy, I would think twice. I went on holiday with my parents, I paid for myself. I sometimes sit and think, and feel bad for being parents who cant afford a good school for our kids.

All the above ended. Ended since last Friday.
I went home with my son like any other day. Make him do his homework and then played with him. When he was watching TV, I went over to the PC to check some mails and FB. When I opened, a funny page came up. A page where people advertise to look for activity partners. I know he is into watching porns on the web, but I didnt know of such sites where people look for sex. I was shocked, but calm.

So I clicked on the 'back' button. and it lead me to something worse. I had the shock of my life. It was gmail, not the ordinary account he used. It was a totally new account. And there it was an email from some girls. I cant remember the whole mail, but I can never forget the words like - I'm forty, average looking. meet me in xxx on Wednesday. My number is xxxxxxxxx. WTF!!!

I didnt know what to do. I just looked at the mail for a while and then went back to the other site. I typed the username (same as the gmail account) and found 3 advertisment..

Subject: Sugar Baby
Age: 40
Looking for: Activity partner
Self employed, chinese,

Willing to pay monthly allowance of 3k.

That really broke my heart.

I confronted him and he told me that he has no intention to meet them or even giving them the 3k.

If there is no intention, why would he wants to meet them, give them the real phone number? or even tell them he is an average guy? No intention would mean giving allowance of 8k, 6ft tall, looks like brad pitt, and a fake phone number.