Why Do I Still Care?

Why do I still care? Why do I blocked him in the facebook and yet search for him every once in a while? Why is it that I still want to know what is going on with him? Why is it that he has to limit his profile? Why is it that he blocked me from seeing him in facebook? Why why why?

Does this all matter? Why do I have to put myself at the bottom end when I have everything in first class now? I am really done with him. Thoroughly done...

Theraphy

This morning I woke up and couldnt stop thinking how crazy I am. Living my life without S. How am I suppose to continue living like this? If I dont do anything, I will eventually end up being a single mom. Last night, he asked me what is the problem - is it mine or his? I also dont know. Before I slept, I asked myself why, I still couldnt find the answer. Not even to myself.

Is it really LOL? But he has long gone. I have kind of let him go and havent thought of him so much already. Why is this so?

About 15 minutes ago, I actually googled for "psychologist in malaysia". Am I really crazy? I visited Malaysia Psychology Center. They have a whole list of theraphies. I clicked on the "contact us" page. Then clicked back. I took the phone and dialled then hung up.

Why? Why? Why should I actually call them? Do you think I really need their help? Am I actually living in denial? This is so crazy. Forget it. I have a wonderful life. I need not any professional help in living a life. I know what I am doing.

Do I?