Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Back to square 1

i think he knows me too well. he knows that i will not do anything to hurt my family. i think he knows i love my family too much. he is putting all the blame on me now. and this made me think twice.

am i really that bad a wife? or a person in general? if he has so much complaints about me, is there a reason for us to stay in this marriage? he said i always dig out his problems only when major arguments occur. i dont complain doesnt mean he has no faults. ok. maybe i tell him his problems at the wrong time, but why does he has to blame everything on me?

i know the problems really exist and i have not loved him back.

am i going to just sit on these problems and give in again?

i checked the psychologist center again. there is this thing called family therapy. should we both go? are there any better solutions?

i will give in for the last time and try to be a good wife. i'm giving myself 6 months, if things really doesnt work out, then i'm really gonna be out of here.

1 comment:

uno said...

I dont think u are a bad wife. I think u are a good wife in a bad marriage. Go ahead give yourself a chance, give it a shot. may be it might help. There is no point in staying for 6 more month if u are not going to do anything about the current situation. I think u shud both go for family therapy.
Do write more, it will help you relax when u are stressed.