Wish him well

I'm not having an affair. I'm not seeing anyone, not sleeping with anyone. Not having any intimate relationship, not involve with any other people either than Mr.

The other day I read an article... it said, cheating is not about sleeping with someone or not, even erasing a message from your phone is part of it. Well, I did. I would erase all messages from Carl. I don't love him. There is nothing between us, but why? Why am I deleting all those messages. Not like it was intimate, they are just casual messages, normal stuff we talk about. 

He looked extremely good. No doubt, I have once or twice fantasize, but nothing more. I don't want to be with him, I don't want to hurt him anymore. I think he still loves me a lot, which I am flattered and uncomfortable at the same time. Knowing that he loves me so much, makes me can't be normal friends with him. It would just make things worse. I have told him a lot of times that there won't be anything in between us and I only treat him as a friend... 

Anyway that day after 1 too many bottles of alcohol... he told Suli & Ay so much. Too much. 

Wish him well...