18-20th Centuries

I went to TTDI the other day. Went past 18-20th Centuries Restaurant and thought, so much has changed. Even the restaurant had moved. Why am I still looking back? Shouldn't I be moving on with my life? I already have a family and there is no way I am going to turn back. So why don't I make the fullest out of this? I know I am a wonderful wife and a great mother. Well, there is a saying - if you can't change, accept it.

I still remember LOL brought me there, he knows that I love antiques and old old stuffs. He knows me well enough. I loved the place. I remember we were sitting opposite each other, by the time we finished our meal, I was sharing his chair. Although it was too small, we both enjoyed the closeness.

Before we left the place, he asked whether I like it, I told him I loved it. And he said, "you don't bring anyone here ok, you can only come here with me." Yes, I kept my promise and till today I have not stepped into that restaurant.

Sometimes I wonder, why am I taking these words so seriously. I can just go in and dine and enjoy the food with anyone, whether it's Mr. or any friends. He wouldn't know and what if he does? Why? Why haven't I been in there? It's my heart that tells me to keep my distance from that place. I have made a promise to him, and I am just trying my best to fulfill it.

These are just petty things that a girl will keep in their head. Are we ladies always the weaker gender? Do men keep these thoughts in mind? Or do they just keep them in their hearts and not let them out?

It has been quite sometime since I last talk about LOL to anyone. Does this mean it has end? Does this mean I have moved on? If so, why am I still thinking of him? Can I get rid of him exclusively? No doubt it's difficult to move on with LOL still in me, but I will try. That's the only way out, only I can help myself. All I should focus on now is my family - anything else will just be memories, thoughts which is kept within me for lives!!!