Are We Too Giving??

My bro is seeing a girl. A new girl in his life. Everytime when he is going after someone, I feel uneasy. Why is this so? Maybe because I am too attached to my family that I tend to be a little possessive at times. But this time, after a while, I realised I shouldn't as he is not young anymore and this girl seemed nice, from his description.

Anyway, I am writing this not to tell you how good or bad this lady is, but to tell you how giving we are. Does this run in the family? My brother has done so much for this new girl of his, even now that she is not his girlfriend yet. I was a little unhappy about what he is doing. If this girl falls for all these, can this be called love? Or is it just materialistic?

Then again I thought, I am not in that position to say this. I myself is like that. Thinking back again, I pamper my guys so much. I always make them feel wanted. I guessed guys always love being with me, because I am a nice and easy going person. I am trustworthy and honest. I don't pretend in front of others. I am who I am.

When I am in a relationship, I am always giving. I don't know why. I always put people ahead of me. Am I stupid? I remember Lynn telling me once that we are human, we should be selfish. I never learnt. Even though I know I don't love Mr. that much anymore, I still treat him well. I am afraid I might hurt him in some ways.

And I remembered LOL telling me, he loves to be pampered. Well, he sure knows who to find. I can be so pampering. There were so much restrictions when I was with LOL. I don't know why. Maybe at that point I was still shy. I am, and I am just being myself. I'm not hiding anything, it's just natural for me to feel shy in front of people.

I love him, I still do. And another regret was that I restricted myself from him. I bet if he sees more of me, there is no way he will let me go.