I really need to talk...
but dont know what I wanna talk about. About life? Isnt it boring?
I really want to try to lead a new life. A changed life, but it's impossible.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Finally it's Over
I still search for LOL in facebook. Still reads his "what are you doing right now". Just for the sake of knowing what he is doing...
Yesterday I searched him again and he wrote ...is going home to catch up with beloved wife.
Instead of feeling bad, I was ok. Does it mean I have finally gotten over with him? Does it mean it's finally over? I did gave it a thought, I wasnt wrong, I knew he was a great husband. I know he is a great father. Instead of being envious and jealous, I felt happy for him. I am glad that he finally found someone he loved.
So I really guess it's time for me to move on. It has been 8 years since I met him for the first time. It's a very long time indeed. I do think of him at times, but getting back together with him is a big NoNo.
Now I am just hoping that things get better between mr & me.
Yesterday I searched him again and he wrote ...is going home to catch up with beloved wife.
Instead of feeling bad, I was ok. Does it mean I have finally gotten over with him? Does it mean it's finally over? I did gave it a thought, I wasnt wrong, I knew he was a great husband. I know he is a great father. Instead of being envious and jealous, I felt happy for him. I am glad that he finally found someone he loved.
So I really guess it's time for me to move on. It has been 8 years since I met him for the first time. It's a very long time indeed. I do think of him at times, but getting back together with him is a big NoNo.
Now I am just hoping that things get better between mr & me.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
A Loving Niece
i am sad. nothing to do with Mr. nor LOL this time.
i have an uncle (my mum's brother). he gambled and lost a hell lot of money. my mum and all aunties have helped him in all sorts of ways and finally the debt was settled. he lost his job and his family. everything was fine until yesterday.
out of the blue he called me. after 5 minutes of normal conversation, he finally asked if i have money to lend him. oh dear. i still remember when i was much younger, he always played with us and loved us a lot. he is the youngest sibling in the family so everyone loves him a lot. especially mum.
it hurts me so much to hear that. i know that he couldnt find money anywhere else. i was disappointed and he told me not to tell mum or dad. he doesnt want them to worry. i promised him cause i really dont want him to trouble mum anymore. mum worries a lot.
i met him and gave him the money. standing in front of him, i couldnt help but cried. i was sad and disappointed. i told him that this is my hard earned money and please dont used it to gamble. he said he doesnt gamble anymore.
i left and really hope he doesnt gamble anymore.
i have an uncle (my mum's brother). he gambled and lost a hell lot of money. my mum and all aunties have helped him in all sorts of ways and finally the debt was settled. he lost his job and his family. everything was fine until yesterday.
out of the blue he called me. after 5 minutes of normal conversation, he finally asked if i have money to lend him. oh dear. i still remember when i was much younger, he always played with us and loved us a lot. he is the youngest sibling in the family so everyone loves him a lot. especially mum.
it hurts me so much to hear that. i know that he couldnt find money anywhere else. i was disappointed and he told me not to tell mum or dad. he doesnt want them to worry. i promised him cause i really dont want him to trouble mum anymore. mum worries a lot.
i met him and gave him the money. standing in front of him, i couldnt help but cried. i was sad and disappointed. i told him that this is my hard earned money and please dont used it to gamble. he said he doesnt gamble anymore.
i left and really hope he doesnt gamble anymore.
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