What is it in a marriage? I have asked and answered this so many times. Somehow, it just won't go into my head.
Mr. & I have been through so many things. The affair, the depression, almost everything. And I am where I am now. Married for 3 1/2 years, with a pretty boy. Why is it that we have been through so much, but when it comes to intimacy, it's zero?
Does this mean I have not gotten over it yet? Does this mean I still want to be with LOL? Does it mean I love Mr. no more? I am so afraid. Today, I have 2 friends saying that they have problems with their marriage, and have thought of divorcing.
Then again I thought, I have been through what they are going through now, but why am I here? Why can't I be firm enough to want what I want? If I was them, I would have been divorced 3 years ago.
That's me, that is just so me. Everyone who knows me, knows that I will sit in silence. I will not do anything that's out of ordinary. Why is this so? Why can't I just stand up for my own rights? Sometimes, I really feel sad for what I daren't do.
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I would like to put it in another way...U were strong enough to survive this and go on..It is very easy to go out of a relation. But it takes so much guts to go on and survive..
I do not know so much about these stuffs as I was never married, But still from my side.. u are a winner.
wow, thanks. really great encouragement.
i've always thought the other way around. i thought it takes guts to leave a relationship. staying in one is a coward.
but really thanks, it's good to realise now.
Wow...good to know that my comments have cheered up u a little bit atleast, and it is useful for someone.
But don't think this is your fate and sit idle....
Try to make some change in your life, not drastic one but bit by bit..just try to be in the shoes of Mr. and try to understand what he is thinking etc...
And do blog when u do not feel right...
I will be here to listen to u :-)
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